Please someone help me?

you have a great answer already and some great advise. All I can do is say, " This too will p!" Which basically means there are times in our lives that we just must suck up and do what we have to do to survive it! It may mean psychologically, situational, or physically. It means trying to understand and cope and just get through it until we can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Believe me it will come. The day that you have your independence and you have your freedom to do what you want. Just remember not to trash the people in your path of experience and knowledge. You never know who you wlll met on the road up or down. Just be patient and remember not to harm your self on your journey. It is after all your life. Take care. I hope just a little of this helps you!